Wtf!!

Today was supposed to be like any other day. But then no. Someone had to go all out and spoil it with their 'brat'ness. With their abounding stupidity and irritable behaviour. Some people never grow out of their childish behaviour. God help them, but before they realise or even learn not to continue so, everyone around gets infinistely pained. Makes me wonder why their mental growth is not complementary with their age. Do they seriously have some mental deficiency or is it just an elaborate act on their part to take the easy way out?

They claim to be someone but are someone else beneath the surface. Wonder why the double act! And I just don't get how they can live a constant lie just to project some stupid stereotypical image. Constantly comparing with others, trying to best them everytime and getting sulky and disagreeable whenever things don't conform with their plans - huh!! Get a life god dammit!! And stop mooching off others' patience.

Some perverse streak in me wishes they get some lesson soon enough. But then thats the whole point - they behave differently with people they interact with on a daily basis and differently with outsiders. Wish the others saw them in their resplendently ugly behaviour once. A peek would be enough to put an end to the whole act. But then fate is so damn unjust. Huh!! I just have to satisfy myself with the knowledge that such lack of consistency and petulancy will earn them nothing in the long run.

Adieu

It's time to bid adieu to all the 4 years I spent at IITM, to suffice myself with the memories I made in the time span and move on. Four years - it is such a wonder how the time flew. But I distinctly remember how there were days when I wished the 4 years just got over. People who made me wish to extend this period of life for longer and those that made me think otherwise. Work I cherished and that which I disliked thoroughly and many of shades in between. Such myriad of feelings, experiences, interactions and all have a definite place in my mind forever.

Forever is a heavy word. I cannot say I will remember every second I felt happy here, only that I will remember the most distinct events. And those I can count on my fingertips. But the heavy lessons I learnt, the stumbling blocks and the emotional turmoil I went through sometimes just never get erased. Maybe I am masochist for revisiting those times regularly and wondering what I did wrong or how those could have been handled better, but I do not seriously regret doing that.

This time has to rank prime in shaping me. What I am today, I wouldn't be same without the experiences here. I have learnt to temper mysef, behave in the required ways. There is a definite cynical edge to my outlook now - I dunno whether it is a positive or a negative turn. Many things are left to be learnt, many character flaws to be corrected. Certainly I have also added on some jagged ends, but what the heck. Most amazing of all is I can't imagine myself having been different earlier. Maybe all this was waiting to come out of me at the opportune moment. It must have been e all along. Or as some one said, we don't suddenly change, it is all latent.

Welcoming '08

Happy New Year '08.. This year comes along with promises of ending a stage in my life- the studies part, and taking on huger responsibilities and truly going on out there to stand on my two legs. I just can't wait for it to start!! [:)]..

Well I have made some resolutions that I hope to remember beyond the heat of the moment. Here's to the new year with gusto!! Good luck me, and to you and to all those out there!!