Thursday, March 30, 2006

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Man is a social animal. A simple statement, yet it is so complex. Man being endowed with all faculties of expression, understanding and perception should be capable of communicating to his fellow humans. But there is such a hue and cry about communication gap. Why so? Man can discover many things, invent new ideas and compound theories about complex issues. He is proud to have unraveled the mysteries of nature and reached the far end of the galaxy. Why then can’t he understand what his neighbor is getting at? Why is he so oblivious to what his kin and kith are feeling? Then why doesn’t a boss know the pressure on his assistant, a father can’t understand his son’s dilemma, a husband doesn’t know what his wife wants? It is natural hence that misunderstandings and disputes crop up. Man unknowingly is distancing himself from others and this rift is growing by leaps and bounds unheeded.

Look around yourself. Take the birds for instance. See how the remaining birds hover over a dead one from their group, how they travel long distances in search of compatible climate in such huge numbers. We don’t see a single bird finding its own way oblivious to the rest. Heading relentlessly towards a single destination they are unified in their approach. They seem to care not only to reach the goal but also to do so in a group. This throws light on their ability to understand signs and might even represent an undercurrent of feeling. Nature abounds in such examples. There is the classical case of snakes taking revenge. It has been scientifically proven that the snakes are attracted to a dead snake by means of odour coming from the dead one. Well if you ask me that’s a form of communication.

Animals do not have the prized virtue of processing data according to us. When we see such lowly creations of God (as we see them, of course) so apparently having non-verbal communication as stated above, why then cant we, who are proud of being able to speak and process feelings, communicate the same to a fellow being??In the name of technological advancement emails and chatting are sort of distancing people.Next door neighbors no longer have any communication.Guess people will realize when its time or when it is too late.No wonder, things needing prime importance are going back on one's agenda.
I hope i don't become like, "when was the last time i saw u??" or "I don't know what u think and i dont care." .Well i should give it to my self that i can relate almost unrelated topics, right?

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

For a change


Well i have uploaded a picture at last.

See the beauty in nature around us.Tough not to appreciate nature's work.I wonder sometimes if man can ever compete with her.He has to certainly take inspiration from nature.We can imbibe what we see around us and create something state of the art.But then we have to take care not to interfere with the natural processes.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

height of craziness...

Got this from a blog i visited. Filled it out for you, my readers. Enjoy!

1. What time did you get up this morning? 8:40am
2. Diamonds or pearls? diamonds please. Heh heh
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? athadu
4. What is your favorite TV show? medical detective
5. What did you have for breakfast? a glass of milk
6. What is your middle name? dont have one..
7. What is your favorite cuisine? schezwan fried rice
8. What foods do you dislike? hmmm...cant think of any!!
9. What is your favorite Potato chip? lays
10. What is your favorite CD at the moment? ilayaraja
11. What kind of car do you drive? dont own one
12. What is your favorite sandwich? butter
13. What is your favorite item of clothing? my blue-black salwar.
14. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? Germany
15. What color is your bathroom? macrame
16. Brand of clothing? assorted
17. Where would you want to retire? bangalore
18. Favorite time of day? dawn and dusk
19. Where were you born? rajahmundry
20. Favorite sport to watch? F1
21. Who do you least expect to send this back? n/a
22. Person you expect to send it back first? none
23. What type of detergent do you use? Ariel
24. Coke or Pepsi? 7up
25. Are you a morning person or night owl? morning
26. What size shoe do you wear? 6
27. Do you have pets? no
28. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with everyone? I've gone bonkers right now..hee..
29. What did you want to be when you were little? A surgeon
30. Favorite Candy Bar? 5star
31. What is your best childhood memory? Visiting my grandparents
32. Different jobs you have had in your life? house-keeping at my home!!
33. Nicknames: Bunny
34. Piercing? Ears
35. Ever been to Africa? No
36. Ever been toilet papered? No
37. Love someone so much it made you cry? Yes
38. Been in a car accident? no
39. Croutons or bacon bits? -what??
40. Favorite day of the week? Thursday
41. Favorite restaurant? New Yorkers
42. Favorite flower? Roses, jasmine
43. Favorite ice cream? cassata
44. Disney or Warner Brothers? warner
45. Favorite fast food restaurant? gokul
46. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? I don't know
47. What do you do most often when you are bored? Blog, read, sleep..
48. Who are you most curious about their responses to this questionnaire? My sweetheart;but he wont see this, i know!!
49. Last person you went to dinner with? One of my classmaates-names: a no no!!
50. Ford or Chevy? Neither-porsche
51. What are you listening to right now? ilayaraja's "Izhaya nila"
52. How many tattoos do you have? None
53. Which came first, the chicken or the egg? Egg
54. How many people are you sending this Email to? None
55. What color is your bedroom carpet? peach
56. How many times did you fail your driver's test? None
57. Before this one, from whom did you get your last-mail? viswanath

Friday, February 10, 2006

A walk to remember

The film came as a real and wonderful surprise.When i heard it was a teen movie i dint expect anything of the sort it really was.The film came in with truly profound depth, impeccable performances, solid direction and good pacing through a difficult story.I just loved Shane West and continue to do so.Mandy Moore was awesome too.The movie was such a tear jerker.Not many movies had moved me to tears as this one did.I remember crying all the times i saw the movie.

AWTR contains a heartfelt conclusion to a story where you get to care about Landon and Jamie, two polar opposite teenagers who face peer struggles and the perils of love and death. The situations that occur are very real, and very sad. Once the movie finishes, you'll be left wondering what happens to everyone.I found myself wishing I were either Landon or Jamie, because they represent the real virtues of life and love.This isn't a typical love story, because when it comes down to it, the love is only part of the whole scheme. While I never expected this to touch me so much, AWTR enters as perhaps my favorite movie of all time. I felt as if i was a part of the movie, i was able to relate to them, and i love it. AWTR succeeds in delivering a great experience.

Landon lacks faith in himself, in the wonder of life and in God. Jamie has the faith that Landon lacks.He knew her all his life but chose to ignore her in public so as to present a cool kid attitude.But once they work together on the school play he really gets to know her.And he needs her help in rehearsing his lines for the school play. Through working on the play, Landon starts to fall in love with Jamie. He is softened. He sees her faith. She develops faith in him, and he then finds faith in himself.She makes him stop and realise there is more to life than mere enjoyment.The religion elements of the story are effectively interlaced into the narrative without feeling like the viewer is being force-fed a theological viewpoint.

The music score was another great plus.The sound tracks are meaning ful soothing and romantic.Oh my!! I never thought i would write up comments on a movie, but then the movie i should agree is a forceful one.I wonder if i am carrying the experience with me.Great find for me on the whole.I feel i would have missed something if not for my friend Sowji who told me about it.Thanks dear..

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Rang de Basanti

What a movie.Such a frenzy i was in after watching it.And what tumultuous feelings it stirred up in me.I was impressed by it, at the same time resented certain aspects of the movie.

The foreigner Sue comes across her grandpa's diary and she wants to mobilize the Indian youth and make a film reliving the past.And behold the reaction she gets.They show so many giving a try at it, but one cant fail to notice that they cant identify themselves with the roles.They struggle to even get their expression right.Its a real wonder considering the youth now-a-days are great patrons of art, theater and acting. At least most of them.Might be to them the issues of patriotism and risking everything for one's beliefs and rights is majorly text-book stuff.
Another point i dint like was using a foreigner to make the trip down the memory line.Its a pity that the foreigner had more enthusiasm about it than we.What an irony therein..the British made the history that it was and then a Britisher comes along to point out the same to us Indians.A sad plight definitely.

Karan says while reading the script of Bhagat Singh "Kaun pagal bolta hai aise dialouge"(not same word exactly...i dont remember them..but something to this effect.).The feeling behind all those lines never got to him in that second. After all Bhagat Singh was but very young at that time and to take the decision that he did, leave all his family and dash their hopes on him was a great sacrifice. He said "Akhir aazaadi meri dulhan hai". And to know that none of his or other revelutionaries' efforts were properly recorded is a low blow.The versions of his deeds and about his death are so varied that they are nearly irrational.
However how Karan imbibes that feeling when making grave decisions himself is heart rending.

Lots more to comment on, but cant now.Should see the movie once more.

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Boulevard of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone!


Thursday, January 12, 2006

Move

I tried so hard and got a new room at last, single one at that.This one offers privacy, a small but better ventilated space.So a definite improvement.Since the time i came here i had to suffice myself on the minimal things i unpacked.I was surrounded by boxes and cases for god knows how long.At any rate 2 weeks to settle down shows how lethargic i am and how idiotic i must seem.

But the room is good and i like it.
A new year, a new room, a new experience.

Saturday, December 31, 2005

Oh what a wonderful vacation i had.What good food i had.Now have to get back to my mess khana :( ..Worst of all travel on Jan 1st but i had to stay as long as possible na..All good things have to come to an end right.But why??

Friday, December 23, 2005

Revisiting those sweet memories...

Laughing can take away our tiredness.
Having a dream gives us energy.

It has been a long time since i visited my old school friends, my school and my teachers.We had been in contact via the email but seeing them in person was a great feeling.Caught up in our old times together we realized a lot had changed and another lot was just as intact as ever.We had a lot of fun together and were laughing a lot.We shared what happened in our colleges and in no time at all were talking of our dreams and ambitions.We had such a wonderful time.Friends are treasures.

My school was as homely as it was earlier in spite of the huge renovation undertaken.The very face of it as i remembered was just a memory.Walking along the corridors and grounds of my alma mater with my friends was so touching.We should really thank god for such small pleasures in life and thank we did.Though few of the teachers who taught me were absent we had a jolly good time with the others.The teachers were visibly touched when we relieved those funny incidents in class and about our farewell.Our principal spent a little time with us.Only when we left did we realize we missed school life a lot.Nothing could have ever accounted for what we felt there.As they say, few things don't change.

I told all of them to take care of themselves.To be in good spirits and cheer.


Monday, December 12, 2005

Home..sweet home..

Ah!!Here i am with my heart satisfied, my famished pranas revived.Where else but at home, sweet home..This feeling of euphoria has caught on with me since the last day of my exams and doesn't seem to diminish even a little.Well at least till the results are out.Catching on with news here, meeting my friends, and what not.Having good food and crashing for god-knows-how-long go without saying.I was simply elated even at the prospect of a month long vacation and this suitably lives up to those expectations.
Lots to say but i am sooooo busy now (!!) that i have to keep it for some other time.

Friday, December 02, 2005

The road to success is not straight.There is a curve called Failure, a loop called Confusion, speed bumps called Friends,red lights called Enemies, caution lights called Family. You will have flats called Jobs. But, if you have a spare called Determination, an engine called Perseverance, insurance called Faith, you will make it to a place called Success.

Monday, November 28, 2005

EQUALITY??

Well thats what i keep hearing.But if that happens to be a reality then i surely am blind.No offense meant- this is purely my opinion.Blame Google for giving me this space to voice my opinion in case you are rubbed the wrong side by this.
Starting from the scratch.There were few articles in the Hindu magazine on Sunday which seemed to voice a similar opinion.I was very agitated reading those.The issues brought out in those were of utmost importance.Everybody preaches about the equanimity of girls and boys.But if there be heart-speak,i would not agree upon that.I don't find that anywhere.Not in those homes where there are boys and girls.Not at school.Not in the universities not after marriage.Beyond that the vicious circle continues.
In the words of Shirley Chisholm,"The emotional,sexual and psychological stereotyping of females begins when the doctor says: 'It's a girl.' "Its true that both a boy and girl are same in the eyes of parents,yet there persists discrimination in few innocuous ways.Especially from the older generations of the family.This i could personally see in few of the so-called modern families too.The girl child is not allowed the free usage of net or the phone like the boy.One can say its for her own safety,but that, i feel ,should not come in the way of her socializing.
That being the situation at home,the school is no different.It is generally not acceptable to have a girl as the topper.The professors themselves,few ladies even,find difficulty in accepting the situation.The boys are made to cultivate the opinion that a girl is not supposed to dominate them.Is this not completely off the beam?Where the children are supposed to accept the others and learn to accept differences with equanimity,they are being given the exact opposite idea.
This being rooted deep down in them,they turn out even more domineering and chauvinist.Girls face the continual harassment from many guys.Many times it becomes so embarrassing and inconvenient for them to even venture out .This is justified by the rising number of eve-teasing cases.Personally i feel a very complex and basic issue has been smothered and made quite unimportant and of no consequence by naming it so.The problem needs immediate addressal and awareness needs to be spread.I cant help wondering how the guys would take to being vulnerable.
At workplace too females are not spared.To be successful a woman has to be much better at the job than a man.Added to that is the lack of co-operation and recognition.Well ultimate subjugation starts after marriage.The female is denied the freedom of expression too in some cases.The papers are so full of such cases.This being the situation in urban areas then the condition in rural areas needs no mention.
Is this what we call equality?The situation needs immediate addressal and improvement.Women have been trained to speak softly and carry a lipstick.Those days are over.They are as good, if not better, than men in any thing they do.Their mettle has been proved innumerable times in various situations-be it in the workplace ,in research or in space exploration.Its high time women are given the recognition that is due to them.Harmony and co-operation should prevail for any further improvement in the situation.
If you want to make beautiful music,you must play the black and the white notes together.

Monday, October 31, 2005

for a change......

I've realized for the past 4 posts I've been writing about all the mundane things i could think of.Its time i get back to the main reason I've started something as a blog.I write here when I'm either very happy or feeling too low.I like to acknowledge that I'm very emotional.Its just something which makes me feel lively...so many varied emotions.All a part and parcel of our life.Our emotional response varies from situation to situation.Well after all its one of the greatest gifts we have received from GOD.The distinguishing feature from animals and non-living things.We should thus appreciate this gift and try to be quite expressive.Thats easier said than done.Lots of situations arise where we have to settle with a farce.Sometimes this may be life-saving for all we know.

Feelings do not need to be logical.They are not meant to be rational or justified.You feel something in a particular way because you are alive still.You are unique and can respond uniquely.Our daily life presents varied situations that try us and bring out the feelings in us.How good does it feel to be happy,exuberant??And when one can feel that,sorrow and grief come along too.Looking at an artist perform on stage we can gauge the number of emotions we are subjected to.All in the span of a few seconds or as long as you take them to be.Its particularly important for us to make sure we take these feelings in the right sense and learn to imbibe good ones and control the negative feelings.Even in the most trivial walks of our life,We are constantly,though unconsciously,following certain well-known beacons and landmarks.In the words of Henry D.Thoreou,"Not till we are lost,in other words not till we have lost the world,do we begin to find ourselves and realize where we are and the infinite extent of our relations."

We are exposed to such a variety of emotions mainly because of socializing.The people who walk in and out of our life affect us and are responsible for these myriad feelings.Sometimes people come into our life and we know right away they were meant to be there...to serve a purpose,teach us a lesson or help figure out who we are or what we want to become.One can never know who these people are but once you lock your eyes with them,you know they will affect your life in some profound way.Every thing happens for a reason.Nothing happens by sheer chance or luck-all occur to test the limits of our soul.

Here is something i found .It sums it all up...all about how we can utilize our emotions to progress and mould ourselves better.

How do i change?
If i feel depressed i will sing.
If i feel sad i will laugh.
If i feel ill i will double my labour.
If i feel fear i will plunge ahead.
If i feel inferior i will wear new garments.
If i feel uncertain i will raise my voice.
If i feel poverty i will think of wealth to come.
If i feel incompetent,i will think of past success.
If i feel insignificant,i will think of my goals.
Today i will be the master of my emotions.


Wednesday, October 26, 2005

crap

According to the news updates,there is a low pressure in bay of Bengal.I don't want to sound skeptic but this weather is doing me no good.Personally i don't relish this.Whoever conceived the idea that it would rain cats and dogs in chennai of all places??At least not me,after being a victim to the scorching heat here for the past year.As a matter of fact I've been here just that much time,but have heard enough about the lack of rains here.I had been subjected to heavy downpours back in my hometown long enough to get pissed off.So you can actually understand my dislike for these rains.I know its doing this place a lot of good,the farmers at least.That is if we overlook the havoc such heavy downpour is creating .The papers are all flooded with photos of the immense damage it has caused.This might not be of any consequence to me what so ever,but it has affected me in quite a different way.

Cold and sore throat.Is that any damage??You might be tempted to ask that,but don't even dare.Its me and only me who is in this situation.So don't i know better?With that in mind let me proceed on my current interest-cribbing.Thats because i am absolutely jobless,now that the quizzes are over.Off the line.So there go the brakes.Back to cribbing-a running nose wont be many people's fancy.Neither would one appreciate the company of someone with that.Same is the case with me.I really hate carrying a kerchief around or searching for one when i lose it.Worst part of this is i cant make myself do anything.I cant coax myself into going to the classes or do any of my pending works.So all i do is while away time by chatting with old friends.Now thats one topic for which i can move off the track.

I just love my friends.This might be because of having a select few.But really friends have a great pull for me.Its so wonderful spending time with them.Those go right into the few cherished memories of everyday.Of late i have been in contact with my old schoolmates.old is gold they say-and i vouch for that.There's nothing better than chatting with them and reminiscing about those old times spent together and catching up with current times.At any rate,this is providing some solace in the gloomy weather out there.Pushing drowsiness right out of my head.Let me not dwell too long on this right now.Have to answer myself what pressing things prevent me from doing that.Guessed it right i think.What else but my running nose.ha..ha..

Ciao.

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Exhausted.....

Yes....freed at last from those exams.Really nothing brought me to the edge of despair as did this quiz.I found myself completely lost and only now did i come to know of my ignorance.Well whoever said that ignorance is bliss knows just one side of the coin.That much for cribbing.

Just looking around i can find innumerable things to do.My very room demands a hell lot of attention now.Not to mention the novels i have to return or the assignments i should complete.There i am back at studies.NO.Forbidden territory [to my heart atleast].Right now all i need is a good means to rejuvenate my exhausted and bugged spirits.I tried burying myself in a movie.The flick was real cool and i thoroughly enjoyed it.Then went to the beach and had grub.Now banging the computer.Well...i understand i've put forth how jobless i am.Tried chatting but that turned out a fiasco when some fool buzzed me and i dint bother to ignore it.My mistake.

MISTAKE.Reminds me.That's not just the only one i committed of late.Dunno whats up with me but i seem to have lost all reason and purpose.I need time for introspection.Look-what am i saying?I have all the time anyone can wish for,yet i am making no progress about myself.Commiting mistakes is not a crime.To err is human.But to remain oblivious to these and keep repeating them-thats the height of stupidity.No... thats not being harsh - i need to be harsh on myself.I have got some goals and ideals to achieve.Those are set by me myself.So no point complaining that achieving them can be challenging.Its not that i dont make plans-i make too many of them,but not a single one gets executed.I have become too lazy to finish them.

But why the hell do i satisfy myself by saying i will do and i will do?Procrastination is a great hindrance in my path.The good thing about these flop shows in my quizzes is that i have retrieved the long lost feeling of commitment to work.All the best to me.


Monday, October 17, 2005

aftermath...

It surely could not have been worse.I messed up the paper completely and here i am not even caring a jot about it.Too cranky right?Inspite of the pathetic performance,i do not regret surfing the net today and putting up this piece of crap.Where the hell is my common sense when i need it utmost?Tomorrow's exam is even more pathetic.Hey..what am i thinking...its more than that.Atleast in these few hours,i can mug something na...Let me give it a shot....
P.S:I am unable to resist putting something up in my space...guess i am addicted...not a good turn of events...

Sunday, October 16, 2005

tough times ahead

Hiya

What is this life full of care ,there is no time to stand and stare.Thats something i will vouch for owing to the horrible pressures i am being put under.Who ever said being a student is easy?If i go by what i hear i begin to wonder what life after this is bound to be.I seriously can't comprehend what everybody refers to as easy and care-free life...this student life.Too bad, no one sympathises with us or agrees that we do suffer a lot.

My semester lasts about 4 months and we are made to do a lot of courses in such a short span of time.And i can promise you that it does me no good.I hardly can cram stuff in such a short notice.Why can't the professors be a little more considerate and give us some to enjoy and understand the course?Well, now that i am past caring,i can right get down to penning down my woes[innumerable one's at that..]and crib my heart out.

Since the time i arrived this semester,i've kept promising myself that my mistakes in the previous sems wont re-occur.For heaven's sake NO.That simply wont be the case for me.How can my life become easy and simple?Prorastination says unto me"Hell,what ever are you getting out of it anyway?Just sit back and enjoy."Duffer that i am i agree.And now i reap the benifts all[in case you can call them benefits.]When there is a backlog,it simply does'nt go away.I try real hard,but to no avail.And just when i start to live with it,other things pile up too.To my great discomfort there loom the quizzes.I some how scraped through the 1st session of it all.Well my marks are not worth sharing though.Now thats the story a month ago.

I start from the day after those nightmares with new resolutions and determination.I even manage to find a secluded spot in the campus and study.But all good things should come to an end.Just a day it lasted,for god's sake,just a day.For the pending work that i have,it would hardly suffice.But i revert back to my old ways of wasting time on novels and stuff.Believe it or not,this blog was created in one such wasted time.And here i am,having to face the consequences of whiling away precious time.Isit in front of the computer,fidgeting with it and writing this useless bit of crap when nothing less than the 2nd quizzes start tomorrow.And i am becoming more and more paranoid as the day passes.And now i am frightened like hell of these as if my situation could get any worse.All i can do now is think and do nonsense.

Hell-- ask me and i will define it for you.Its too late now to start the courses afresh,but nevertheless with the zeal of a knight,lone one at that,i face the battle field tomorrow.I shall now resort to my textbooks and xeroxes of friend's notes to find something that might turn up in the paper tomorrow.I sign off on this optimistic note then.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

life's lessons....

Life presents immense opportunities all the way....Its only that one has to be on the look out and welcome these changes for all that they are worth.As is well known-- opportunity knocks just once..We come across a lot of people with different mentalities and perceptions.Though their ideas may differ completely from our view point,we learn to appreciate their company and get along.Adjustment is the key to our survival in this wierd world[obviously its wierd to our own personality]...well we do know how boring it would be if everyone were a mere clone of our own self...

One of the most intriguing part of this life is attachment and love.U might say its ephemeral but how else would humanity have survived through innumerable crisis and all but for the presence of loving souls??Hats off to those guardian angels who loved unconditionally and freely,imparting lessons of "live and let live"..It comes in different packing to every other individual.Love is a gift.If you recieve it,appreciate and accept it.Life becomes harder for us when we live for others,but it also becomes richer and happier.So we can sort of understand what drives philantropists.Taking a cue from such people,if we could strive to imbibe a little concern in our dealings with the world, we could create a better living space.

Innumerable things does one learn everyday..also one enjoys and learns to be happy ,inspite of the hostility around us.Well here goes our great point..Live everyday as if it were your last,because one of these days ,it will be.So...learn from yesterday,live for today and hope for tomorrow..

I sign off here now..thanking GOD for this great chance at life...

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

motivation...

hey....
one does feel rather disconcerted to find things go so amiss around oneself..true it doesn't happen all too often but the frustration and memories do linger..don't u wonder what it is that troubles me...it may seem too trivial but when that alone comprises one's entire world,the view differs..its a grand festival out in this part of the country when one's expected
to enjoy all that comes their way..but heavens forbid..NO..its not smooth sailing for all..all my plans back fire and here i am in the dead of night searching for motivation to lift my failing spirits...Google u know comes too handy..well look at this one that has quite helped me...

You know a dream is like a river,ever changing as it flows.
And a dreamer's just a vessel that must follow where it goes.
Trying to learn from what's behind you and never knowing what's in store
makes each day a constant battle just to stay between the shores.
And I will sail my vessel till the river runs dry.
Like a bird upon the wind,these waters are my sky.
I'll never reach my destination if i never try,
So I will run my vessel 'til the river runs dry.
Too many times we stand aside and let the water slip away.
To what we put off 'til tomorrow has now become today.
So don't you sit upon the shore and say your satisfied.
Choose to chance the rapids and dare to dance the tides.
--Victoria Shaw