Today was supposed to be like any other day. But then no. Someone had to go all out and spoil it with their 'brat'ness. With their abounding stupidity and irritable behaviour. Some people never grow out of their childish behaviour. God help them, but before they realise or even learn not to continue so, everyone around gets infinistely pained. Makes me wonder why their mental growth is not complementary with their age. Do they seriously have some mental deficiency or is it just an elaborate act on their part to take the easy way out?
They claim to be someone but are someone else beneath the surface. Wonder why the double act! And I just don't get how they can live a constant lie just to project some stupid stereotypical image. Constantly comparing with others, trying to best them everytime and getting sulky and disagreeable whenever things don't conform with their plans - huh!! Get a life god dammit!! And stop mooching off others' patience.
Some perverse streak in me wishes they get some lesson soon enough. But then thats the whole point - they behave differently with people they interact with on a daily basis and differently with outsiders. Wish the others saw them in their resplendently ugly behaviour once. A peek would be enough to put an end to the whole act. But then fate is so damn unjust. Huh!! I just have to satisfy myself with the knowledge that such lack of consistency and petulancy will earn them nothing in the long run.
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Adieu
It's time to bid adieu to all the 4 years I spent at IITM, to suffice myself with the memories I made in the time span and move on. Four years - it is such a wonder how the time flew. But I distinctly remember how there were days when I wished the 4 years just got over. People who made me wish to extend this period of life for longer and those that made me think otherwise. Work I cherished and that which I disliked thoroughly and many of shades in between. Such myriad of feelings, experiences, interactions and all have a definite place in my mind forever.
Forever is a heavy word. I cannot say I will remember every second I felt happy here, only that I will remember the most distinct events. And those I can count on my fingertips. But the heavy lessons I learnt, the stumbling blocks and the emotional turmoil I went through sometimes just never get erased. Maybe I am masochist for revisiting those times regularly and wondering what I did wrong or how those could have been handled better, but I do not seriously regret doing that.
This time has to rank prime in shaping me. What I am today, I wouldn't be same without the experiences here. I have learnt to temper mysef, behave in the required ways. There is a definite cynical edge to my outlook now - I dunno whether it is a positive or a negative turn. Many things are left to be learnt, many character flaws to be corrected. Certainly I have also added on some jagged ends, but what the heck. Most amazing of all is I can't imagine myself having been different earlier. Maybe all this was waiting to come out of me at the opportune moment. It must have been e all along. Or as some one said, we don't suddenly change, it is all latent.
Forever is a heavy word. I cannot say I will remember every second I felt happy here, only that I will remember the most distinct events. And those I can count on my fingertips. But the heavy lessons I learnt, the stumbling blocks and the emotional turmoil I went through sometimes just never get erased. Maybe I am masochist for revisiting those times regularly and wondering what I did wrong or how those could have been handled better, but I do not seriously regret doing that.
This time has to rank prime in shaping me. What I am today, I wouldn't be same without the experiences here. I have learnt to temper mysef, behave in the required ways. There is a definite cynical edge to my outlook now - I dunno whether it is a positive or a negative turn. Many things are left to be learnt, many character flaws to be corrected. Certainly I have also added on some jagged ends, but what the heck. Most amazing of all is I can't imagine myself having been different earlier. Maybe all this was waiting to come out of me at the opportune moment. It must have been e all along. Or as some one said, we don't suddenly change, it is all latent.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
Welcoming '08
Happy New Year '08.. This year comes along with promises of ending a stage in my life- the studies part, and taking on huger responsibilities and truly going on out there to stand on my two legs. I just can't wait for it to start!! [:)]..
Well I have made some resolutions that I hope to remember beyond the heat of the moment. Here's to the new year with gusto!! Good luck me, and to you and to all those out there!!
Well I have made some resolutions that I hope to remember beyond the heat of the moment. Here's to the new year with gusto!! Good luck me, and to you and to all those out there!!
Friday, October 12, 2007
Someone's Resume!!
I need a job and I need it bad,
I can do lots of stuff,
plus I promised my dad.
not to mention it's out of gas,
I gotta do something soon,
or I'm out on my ass.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Some reasons to be grateful if you grew up speaking English;
1) The bandage was wound around the wound.
2) The farm was used to produce produce.
3) The dump was so full that it had to refuse more refuse.
4) We must polish the Polish furniture.
5) He could lead if he would get the lead out.
6) The soldier decided to desert his dessert in the desert.
7) There is no time like the present, he said it was time to present
the present.
8) At the Army base, a bass was painted on the head of a bass drum.
9) When shot at, the dove dove into the bushes.
10) I did not object to the object.
11) The insurance was invalid for the invalid.
12) There was a row among the oarsmen about how to row.
13) They were too close to the door to close it.
14) The buck does funny things when the does are present.
15) A seamstress and a sewer fell down into a sewer line.
16) To help with planting, the farmer taught his sow to sow.
17) The wind was too strong to wind the sail.
18) After a number of Novocain injections, my jaw got number.
19) Upon seeing the tear in the painting I shed a tear.
20) I had to subject the subject to a series of tests.
21) How can I intimate this to my most intimate friend?
22) I spent last evening evening out a pile of dirt.
Let's face it - English is a crazy language.
And some more interesting points...
There is no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine
In pineapple.
English muffins weren't invented in
We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that
quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is
neither from
And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing, grocers don't
groce and hammers don't ham?
Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend?
If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them,
what do you call it?
If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught?
If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat?
In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital?
Ship by truck and send cargo by ship?
Have noses that run and feet that smell?
How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a
wise guy are opposites?
You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house
can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it
out and in which an alarm goes off by going on.
If Dad is Pop, how come! Mom isn't Mop?
he he he...cool isnt it....
-----Anonymous
some information i found in a stranger's profile!
Why English Is So DifficultWe'll begin with a box, and the plural is boxes;
but the plural of ox became oxen not oxes.
One fowl is a goose, but two are called geese,
yet the plural of moose should never be meese.
You may find a lone mouse or a nest full of mice;
yet the plural of house is houses, not hice.
If the plural of man is always called men,
why shouldn't the plural of pan be called pen?
If I spoke of my foot and show you my feet,
and I give you a boot, would a pair be called beet?
If one is a tooth and a whole set are teeth,
why shouldn't the plural of booth be called beeth?
Then one may be that, and three would be those,
yet hat in the plural would never be hose,
and the plural of cat is cats, not cose.
We speak of a brother and also of brethren,
but though we say mother we never say methren.
Then the masculine pronouns are he, his and him,
but imagine the feminine, she, shis and shim.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Me - a mind reader?
Oh! I wish I were one. Surely then, I would know for certain what's going on in the other persons head. You see, I am talking about my inner-most desire -- to be a mind reader. True, I am obsessed with any thing that can give me insights into the complex working of the human mind- psychology or astrology.
I read a lot of psychology books, envy people who have it as their profession. But I guess psychology is not something that is taught only in educational institutions. We don't get exposed to psychology for the first time in the class room like we do to Navier Stokes Equations! It is more a gut feeling and something familiarity and experience teach you. See you don't need someone to explain what your parents or siblings think when they behave the way they do. You know what you did wrong, when you pressed the wrong button. And without verbal exchange you can easily rectify and put their mind at ease. Call it what you want- manipulation? Maybe. But I think we always strive to keep our close one's happy and most important of all, ourselves happy. So, all the more better if you can predict what the other wants and give it to them. It seems a good way to clear out differences too.
Now I often wonder, why can't I use this properly with my friends? Aliens they are not. But something goes seriously wrong and wham! The disaster strikes. I don't know how to breach the gap. Nothing I do or say eases the tension. And especially when I pride myself for my great psycho studies, it reflects badly. Sometimes I think I get it all right, I am reading the signs properly, but maybe I miss nuances of their feelings. May be I don't want to hear them. But once I realize that what I tried so hard to ignore is what is truly felt, it pains like hell. But I still vouch for sensitivity. Just remove the stupidity, I tell myself.
Now viewing it detachedly, it's a blessing in disguise when you are acutely tuned to other person's thought processes. It's like your in their head and can read between the lines to decode the catches in their speech. But your optimism that everything is rosy and good won't hold too long when the hypocrisy is no more unnoticeable. There is no problem when you are a dumb believer of whatever people tell you. Everything seems just right because people have perfected the art of honey dipped speech. No problem when you are too astute to trust anyone. They either won't bother with you or it's the other way round. But you're a goner if you are mid-way. You somehow feel what is going on and can distinguish the undercurrent of thought from what you are hearing. Simultaneous processing or delayed processing. But somehow the latter is beneficial as your delayed reaction would get you all gooey at a later time, in the privacy of your room maybe. What ever it is, you feel hugely let down. Betrayed, more by thought than action. Has it not been said that thought matters more than action?
You can't take it if your closest friend thinks differently from what he is saying. You don't want to hear, "Maybe you are expecting too much." when it was the first ever favor you asked of your long time friend. You don't want to know that your beloved is patiently bearing your stupidity and clumsiness just because you help him out in his work maybe. Surely he can't say you are more of a service agent than an object of affection and love. Maybe he can't get rid of you because there is no spark, but you are helpful and he can't lose you. Your boss may not like you but he shows that only when you are in line for promotion otherwise he seems to adores you. You surely don't want to know his reason. When my friends and I share our feelings, such above and many more cases come up. We agree it is not our fault. Just that when its you, people feel like hating you on sight while they give somebody else a fair chance. All the same, we can't understand why someone would be tolerant of someone new more than some time-tested friend of the yore. Maybe it is best we left such disturbing facets of the other fellow's psyche and stopped being disillusioned. That way we could save a lot of heart-ache and be at peace at least. We can't change others, so why not change our attitude and stop wondering why. Take them and their feelings with a pinch of salt and leave it at that. Think of people who care for you, who mind your feelings and value you. It does no good to your ego to hang around the one person who treats you like trash when others, who truly matter are waiting around. Don't do what hurts you to others. They won't wait too long for you to come to your senses maybe. After all, when we are worried about population explosion, there are enough other people!
We have to let go of many things to remain happy. Nobody is answerable to you and neither are you. It was right when someone said, "Two things in life you must forget- the good you do unto others and the bad they did to you." You should ask yourself "Can I live life without expecting others to be nice to me just because I was nice to them first?" That's the secret to a happy life. Well this too is from psyche analysis. But wise utility that! [:)]
Now I often wonder, why can't I use this properly with my friends? Aliens they are not. But something goes seriously wrong and wham! The disaster strikes. I don't know how to breach the gap. Nothing I do or say eases the tension. And especially when I pride myself for my great psycho studies, it reflects badly. Sometimes I think I get it all right, I am reading the signs properly, but maybe I miss nuances of their feelings. May be I don't want to hear them. But once I realize that what I tried so hard to ignore is what is truly felt, it pains like hell. But I still vouch for sensitivity. Just remove the stupidity, I tell myself.
Now viewing it detachedly, it's a blessing in disguise when you are acutely tuned to other person's thought processes. It's like your in their head and can read between the lines to decode the catches in their speech. But your optimism that everything is rosy and good won't hold too long when the hypocrisy is no more unnoticeable. There is no problem when you are a dumb believer of whatever people tell you. Everything seems just right because people have perfected the art of honey dipped speech. No problem when you are too astute to trust anyone. They either won't bother with you or it's the other way round. But you're a goner if you are mid-way. You somehow feel what is going on and can distinguish the undercurrent of thought from what you are hearing. Simultaneous processing or delayed processing. But somehow the latter is beneficial as your delayed reaction would get you all gooey at a later time, in the privacy of your room maybe. What ever it is, you feel hugely let down. Betrayed, more by thought than action. Has it not been said that thought matters more than action?
You can't take it if your closest friend thinks differently from what he is saying. You don't want to hear, "Maybe you are expecting too much." when it was the first ever favor you asked of your long time friend. You don't want to know that your beloved is patiently bearing your stupidity and clumsiness just because you help him out in his work maybe. Surely he can't say you are more of a service agent than an object of affection and love. Maybe he can't get rid of you because there is no spark, but you are helpful and he can't lose you. Your boss may not like you but he shows that only when you are in line for promotion otherwise he seems to adores you. You surely don't want to know his reason. When my friends and I share our feelings, such above and many more cases come up. We agree it is not our fault. Just that when its you, people feel like hating you on sight while they give somebody else a fair chance. All the same, we can't understand why someone would be tolerant of someone new more than some time-tested friend of the yore. Maybe it is best we left such disturbing facets of the other fellow's psyche and stopped being disillusioned. That way we could save a lot of heart-ache and be at peace at least. We can't change others, so why not change our attitude and stop wondering why. Take them and their feelings with a pinch of salt and leave it at that. Think of people who care for you, who mind your feelings and value you. It does no good to your ego to hang around the one person who treats you like trash when others, who truly matter are waiting around. Don't do what hurts you to others. They won't wait too long for you to come to your senses maybe. After all, when we are worried about population explosion, there are enough other people!
We have to let go of many things to remain happy. Nobody is answerable to you and neither are you. It was right when someone said, "Two things in life you must forget- the good you do unto others and the bad they did to you." You should ask yourself "Can I live life without expecting others to be nice to me just because I was nice to them first?" That's the secret to a happy life. Well this too is from psyche analysis. But wise utility that! [:)]
Friday, March 16, 2007
Expressions, Impressions and Beliefs
Of course I make instant judgement of a person once i speak to them. But there are those people who leave an impression even with a passing look. I have seen variety in looks and expressions since ages but never do they fail to interest me. Not now, not ever. But it has been one interesting journey from the time i came to my institute.I have developed a completely different perspective about why and how. Apparently there need be no reason. But I believe firmly that everything happens for a reason. So why an exception here?
There is that look which shouts at you "I hate you". One which says "okay so you exist?". Another says "Interesting!". Yet another says, too blatantly "Oh.. I admire you..Seee my tongue hanging out?" :P Oh! what diversity we can generate just by combining our brows, mouth and our nose in different angles. Some of the above are downright insulting and others ridiculous. But there are those mild expressions which convey a little, you know the tip of the iceberg which is their feelings. Few more are blank- now I like these. I have tried to put one up on my face innumerable times. But heavens forbid if I succeed. Nature seems to be conspiring against my well-being. Huh! Care I do, but i will die before admitting that.
Now I shall put across some true reasons behind these. That they are my own opinions is of secondary importance. Right? To start with , there are people out there who are so darned egoistic that they fail to compromise, understand or bend their opinions even in face of contrasting situations. Take for example a Mr.A who i know for 5 years. Okay he is an achiever in what ever shit we all are doing. So? Doesn't mean he shouldn't listen to others who are far below him in grades, even when they are saying the right thing. Maybe for all we know the other guy is a superb achiever in another field. Just that what's on his plate right now doesn't fit him right. What ever they do is right always. Wonder how?
Then there are those people who maintain such outrageous beliefs that i never cease being dumbfounded. They are right always and lack the manners to acknowledge the other person's contribution.
There are those who keep asking favours of you and turn away when its their chance.
And few others leave aside their work and keep pleasing others.When will they realise they can never please another human?
Some don't understand that they are unwelcome and keep pestering and annoying until the person loses his temper or manners. And then they complain.Believe me it's true.
Some can't seem to have enough confidence in them. They need constant pushing and buttering to believe in themselves. For God's sake, you did it, please believe you did it right. Even if it's wrong, what's the loss? It's a long life and you can make enough mistakes.
Oh yeah.There are those who can't control their lavish praise. They keep bestowing it even when not required.
I can't seem to remember others right away, but I assure you there are others.
You can always adjust to these, but sometimes you get totally undeserved treatment or are let down badly or your hopes are belied and aspirations dashed. You fail to understand what you did wrong, where it went off-tangent. You want to scream out "Idiot! Use your head and change measures from person to person." Yes, I think that is the only way we can execute fair treatment to all. Give everyone a chance. What ever your reservations about others or your own experiences, keep an open mind. Only a fool can trust some one even when belied once. Make wise decisions and don't get influenced but listen to everyone. Keep good will around. It affects you too!
There is that look which shouts at you "I hate you". One which says "okay so you exist?". Another says "Interesting!". Yet another says, too blatantly "Oh.. I admire you..Seee my tongue hanging out?" :P Oh! what diversity we can generate just by combining our brows, mouth and our nose in different angles. Some of the above are downright insulting and others ridiculous. But there are those mild expressions which convey a little, you know the tip of the iceberg which is their feelings. Few more are blank- now I like these. I have tried to put one up on my face innumerable times. But heavens forbid if I succeed. Nature seems to be conspiring against my well-being. Huh! Care I do, but i will die before admitting that.
Now I shall put across some true reasons behind these. That they are my own opinions is of secondary importance. Right? To start with , there are people out there who are so darned egoistic that they fail to compromise, understand or bend their opinions even in face of contrasting situations. Take for example a Mr.A who i know for 5 years. Okay he is an achiever in what ever shit we all are doing. So? Doesn't mean he shouldn't listen to others who are far below him in grades, even when they are saying the right thing. Maybe for all we know the other guy is a superb achiever in another field. Just that what's on his plate right now doesn't fit him right. What ever they do is right always. Wonder how?
Then there are those people who maintain such outrageous beliefs that i never cease being dumbfounded. They are right always and lack the manners to acknowledge the other person's contribution.
There are those who keep asking favours of you and turn away when its their chance.
And few others leave aside their work and keep pleasing others.When will they realise they can never please another human?
Some don't understand that they are unwelcome and keep pestering and annoying until the person loses his temper or manners. And then they complain.Believe me it's true.
Some can't seem to have enough confidence in them. They need constant pushing and buttering to believe in themselves. For God's sake, you did it, please believe you did it right. Even if it's wrong, what's the loss? It's a long life and you can make enough mistakes.
Oh yeah.There are those who can't control their lavish praise. They keep bestowing it even when not required.
I can't seem to remember others right away, but I assure you there are others.
You can always adjust to these, but sometimes you get totally undeserved treatment or are let down badly or your hopes are belied and aspirations dashed. You fail to understand what you did wrong, where it went off-tangent. You want to scream out "Idiot! Use your head and change measures from person to person." Yes, I think that is the only way we can execute fair treatment to all. Give everyone a chance. What ever your reservations about others or your own experiences, keep an open mind. Only a fool can trust some one even when belied once. Make wise decisions and don't get influenced but listen to everyone. Keep good will around. It affects you too!
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